Exodus

I let my mind just walk away
it took my sanity with it
my brain still with me started to think
but a strangeness grew within it

I began to question all I had done
From birth to this moment in time
to go over my life, once or twice
and discover why I was denied

I looked it over three times more
to figure out the truth
What had I done improperly
to make me so aloof

I examined weeks and even days
as best as I could remember
I know that one day I won't forget
2 years ago that december

my 16th birthday, oh so fun
the people that were happy
I bet if had been famous enough
you would have heard some clapping

But oh how woe that day for me
because there was no cake
nothing for my little mind
to play with or to make.

My life was barren, that realization hit me
before I knew what to do
I cried out for my sanity
but to me it would refuse

To deny me of all I am
for once would be a pleasure
to simply leave this world behind
and see how I am measured

Maybe it would not be bad
no deterents to stop me now
my sanity and reasoning
have abandoned me for now.

One last look at the world I love
before I hang myself
to see those people that I know
those ones I've offered help

To see their struggles everyday
to know that they survive
and suddently a light in me
so brightly begins to shine.

My memory comes back to me
the times with all my friends
on msn, regardless then
we talked about so much

So here I stand, a broken man
trying to fix his worst
with friends like mine, I just can't die
I've got to help them first.